I am a glass half-full person. You? Half-full or half-empty?
But there are layers of processing each of us need to do, at the right time, to keep following Healing.
A few days ago, this picture popped into my thoughts.
If you have eyes in your head, you can see that that is not one person. It is two people. The one with crazy (er) hair is disappointment: sometimes so one with us that we forget we aren’t one unit. The silent vibe would be Abi + disappointment = Me
I don’t walk around nursing disappointment! Gag. Nonetheless, my personal belief is that God has grace for us to shed hidden disappointment, when He says it’s time. The follow up belief is, if He shows you hidden disappointment or you simply become aware of it, then He’s saying it’s time. Simple.
The first picture is disturbing, isn’t it?! What I call ‘me’ and normalize and embrace is me plus one.
But disappointment isn’t a slightly sour companion. It’s a jailer.
That’s disappointment laying on the floor with her whacked hair and she’s reaching right for your wrists and your ankles. She has you chained: attaching you to the past. Attaching us to where we were and what we lost. Staking us into that ground….which is gone and behind us now. But still holding us.
That can be an overwhelming realization, can’t it? That the thing we no longer even identify as foreign in us, has silently become one with us and tied us to something.
You know what doesn’t have to be overwhelming? BREAKING UP WITH IT.
If you’re identifying with this, you’ve already taken a giant step towards a breakup. Or is it break up? As you can see in the next drawing, I’m confused about what it should be.
Can breaking up be simple? Oh yes, yes. Yes, it can. We turn to Truth and believe. It’s so simple it is mind boggling.
In the Bible, the book of Luke, chapter 4 and verse 18 says:
“The Spirit of the Lord is upon Me (the Messiah),
Because He has anointed Me to preach the good news to the poor.
He has sent Me to announce release (pardon, forgiveness) to the captives,
And recovery of sight to the blind,
To set free those who are oppressed (downtrodden, bruised, crushed by tragedy),”
Jesus is the power to release the captives, to set us free. So, yeah, it’s a matter of deciding you believe the truth more than the lie. And the truth is, disappointment is not a part of you. It’s not your friend. It’s not telling you the truth. And it’s holding you back from moving forward. Break up with the lie. You are separate from disappointment. You are not one with it. You stand on your own. It does not need to have permission to stand with you any longer.
What happens to it, post break up? Well, I like to picture it getting scooped into a massive fisherman’s net. (Refer to above picture, hehe) Arms flailing, angry as all get out, but trapped. And sent into the darkness.
Breaking up with disappointment does not mean we do not feel disappointment. It does not mean we don’t need to deal with disappointment. It means we break up with our ongoing relationship with it and we quit identifying ourselves with it.
You can do it! I can do it!
Much love to you today! I’m personally hoping for a more lighthearted subject for our next time together, ha! But, I am brimming with hope for us and I’m tempted to dance over the thought of how many break ups may ensue.
Honest Abi and her stick figures